After my initial tears, I called my Mom.
We both agree this sucks and he sucks and it allllll sucks.
When I said “If this is all some part of an elaborate ruse I’m going to be really pissed.”
Mom accidentally brought the hammer down and said, “oh honey, don’t do THAT to yourself.” And with that, I firmly have told hope to fuck off.
I don’t want it. Hope. I want it to ball itself up into a crumpled heap and leave me alone.
So yeah, fuck off hope. You fuck right off.